Mein aisa kyun hoon

Mein aisa kyun hoon......

Ya i often ponder over this. But often contradict myself by thinking, if i was supposed be what i am, then why i need to think what i am.
I it was all detined, then whats the use thinking about it?
But it was not, then what i am, is because i wanted to be this. Then why do i need to waste my useful energies in such thoughts.
Might be only to blog ;)

But doesn't it naturally occur to everyone.
"Warum heissen was ich ist?"

May be the esteemed sanctity of this pious world is not what i can assimilate.
Or may be i m just a bit out of place. May be its a random quantum of energy, crashed through troposphere & to someone who has got tht extra time to dwell on !!
Or may be its an inner voice vying for a change, out of what i am & out of what i want to be, or this inner latent energy want me to be !!
But is this because there is something called Luck & people still beleive. Even after all those Gandhians & NRMs came victorious out of this conspiring world.
I beleive there shudn't be sth called luck. Even if it, what role can it play to ur life by making u realise tht it really is.......
What positive can u draw out of this very conclusion.......
Oh might be i wandered far off the track......

Might be.......... mein aisa hi hoon